Effort and perseverance weren't enough. Failure and injuries were compounded by the rejection of peers who seemingly chose everyone else for their playground teams before me.
It blows my mind, Dear Reader, but I'm thankful for those hurtful experiences as a child. How could a loving Heavenly Father let any kid hurt?
Maybe because He had something bigger planned. Plans for a broken heart that opened up a space for empathy to grow. When I read about the woman who had a hemorrhage issue , her pain becomes palpable.
25 In the crowd was a woman who had been sick for twelve years with a hemorrhage. 26 She had suffered much from many doctors through the years and had become poor from paying them, and was no better but, in fact, was worse.
Mark 5: 25-26 TLB
Have you lead a "charmed" life, Dear Reader? Or have you experienced moments of the same kind of emotions? What did you do to assuage the pain?
28 For she thought to herself, “If I can just touch his clothing, I will be healed.” 29 And sure enough, as soon as she had touched him, the bleeding stopped and she knew she was well!
Mark 5: 28-29 TLB
And he said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace, healed of your disease.”
Mark 5: 34 TLB
As an adult, I received a diagnosis that said my brain doesn't always talk to my feet and legs, and probably hadn't for most of my life. I was broken and chosen by design to be the hands and feet of Jesus.
Now, Dear Reader, instead of wanting to crawl under the table at Bible study when some of the women talk about biking miles and miles everyday, I praise God that even in my "sickness" He chose me.