Judas. How could he have been so stupid, so self-serving? Didn't he get it? Even the Roman soldiers got it.
4 Jesus, knowing all that was going to happen to him, went out and asked them, “Who is it you want?”
5 “Jesus of Nazareth,” they replied.
“I am he,” Jesus said. (And Judas the traitor was standing there with them.) 6 When Jesus said, “I am he,” they drew back and fell to the ground.
John 18:4-6 NIV
How could they come with weapons, intending to arrest Him, then fall at His feet? What did they see?
And how dare Judas kiss the Master? He seemed to know what Judas was up to. How could He just stand there and let the traitor kiss His cheek?
43 Jesus was still speaking when Judas, one of the twelve disciples, arrived. With him was a crowd armed with swords and clubs and sent by the chief priests, the teachers of the Law, and the elders. 44 The traitor had given the crowd a signal: “The man I kiss is the one you want. Arrest him and take him away under guard.”
45 As soon as Judas arrived, he went up to Jesus and said, “Teacher!” and kissed him. 46 So they arrested Jesus and held him tight.
Mark 14:43-46 GNT
I feel like my whole world has turned upside down. We gave up everything to follow Him. And for what? What do we do now?
Jehovah Rohi, please don't leave me alone with my fears and frustrations. I need you! If you won't give me answers, please give me your peace, just please don't leave me.