Sadness seemed to stalk Mama's family. Suicide, murder, whispers of infidelity, a child born with a disability. Mama said she would get an extraordinarily uneasy feeling before life changing events occured.
Have you had similar experiences, Dear Reader? Or perhaps, you had an inkling that something wonderful was just aroud the corner. It's like we have a barometer inside.
I love that the Lord uses the ordinary to get our attention, or teach us a lesson, or give us a heads up. Things like cats ... fish ... plants.
Not even a month later, after escaping a couple of close calls, Bob the Beta sadly passed also. I thought his tank would stay warm through the three day weekend.
And then we had a snow day and dangerously low temps. Three of our 8th grade boys had a nice service for Bob, complete with Scripture and prayer.
And then there was His other creature, Mama's funeral tree.
Unfortunately, the sunny area by the elevator was unheated. A well-meaning parishioner thought it would be better off in a storage closet. It went missing for nearly a month, hidden in the dark away from the cold.
By then, I was starting to wonder if the Lord was beginning to prepare me for letting go of something bigger.
Turns out, He was.
Last week I was informed that the job I have enjoyed and devoted so much to has been eliminated for the upcoming school year. I felt betrayed, bruised, broken when I was told.
The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”
Deuteronomy 31: 8 NIV
He's fully aware of my circumstances and needs. But He's invited me to a new adventure in faith.
Have I applied for new jobs? Yes. Reached out to connections in my corner of the education world? Yes. Am I trying to be happy about this change? Yes.
And that's fine. It's fine because I know Jesus is with me in the middle of all of it.
What about you, Dear Reader? How have you moved over hurdles to being happy with letting go? I pray both of us will quickly turn to the hand of the Savior who promises to never leave our sides.