The folks at my publisher have reassured me that it frequently takes a new author, promoting a new book, two to five YEARS! Yikes! And I keep forgetting that Life with Bobby and Bonnie has been out less than a year. But I really like my book and want to share its stories and its message with everybody! (Can you hear that ugly whine in my voice?)
To tell you the truth, I don't know how many books we have sold and given away altogether. A few hundred would be my best guess, considerably more given than sold. Giving is my vision, and selling is my mission. Sometimes, it's a struggle to remember book sales are a means to an end.
Maybe I need to literally sit down and make a list of lessons (challenges, failures and successes). Then I think that may not be a good idea. Oh, it's not because I've done everything right, or I don't have a lot to learn. On a bad day, I think it's because I'm a coward, afraid to look closely at how far I still have to go. On better days, I philosophically think a list of failures would serve no positive purpose.
For now, I'm in that place where I don't know what's next. While I'm trying to figure that out, there's two things I'm convinced of. First, I stalwartly believe the Lord wants me to continue reaching out to kids through my writing. Secondly, I don't believe God wants us to sit around and stagnate while we wait for His will to fall on and manifest in us.
So, what am I going to do next? For the time being, it's about learning and trusting. I've already looked into Christian writers' conferences and contacted the events coordinator at Barnes & Nobel about connecting with other locations. No decisions, no commitments.
The big thing is the trusting part. FYI: Perhaps like some of you, life has made trusting God (not to mention mere mortals) a bit challenging for me. For His purposes, He has brought me to a place where it seems I have no choice but to trust Him. With fewer than ten books left our inventory, and personal resources depleted, we must rely on Him to sustain our outreach.
That's what I'm going to try and do while I don't know what to do next: learn and trust. And Dear Readers, don't be surprised if I need a few reminders along the way. What do you do when the way ahead is unclear? How do you stay focused and committed to your vision?
3 For still the vision awaits its time;
it hastens to the end—it will not lie.
If it seem slow, wait for it;
it will surely come, it will not delay.