I'm not sure what quite went wrong, or when. But once it started to unravel, it was hard to see how it could come together again.
We've been working hard paying off debt. We've come up with a plan of what and when we need to do in and around the house to get it "market ready". There's a plan for trading vehicles. And once or twice, I've even searched a little online for new homes.
A man’s mind plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.
Proverbs 16:9 RSV
It started with a leak in the roof. Yada yada yada. Bad back ramped up to awful (because Tom got up on the roof). Whine, whine, whine. Medical bills increasing, overtime decreasing. You get my drift.
God was getting our attention, and teaching me a couple of lessons.
First, Tom and I had talked and talked, and even prayed, but had we listened for how God wanted to use us and our resources?
14 The reality is you have no idea where your life will take you tomorrow. You are like a mist that appears one moment and then vanishes another. 15 It would be best to say, “If it is the Lord’s will and we live long enough, we hope to do this project or pursue that dream.”
James 4:14-15 VOICE
Let me take a minute to clarify about the roof. Tom's not crazy about heights, especially on a ladder. (Trust me, that's not a criticism; it takes an act of God or Congress to get my feet off the ground.) To make it worse, the drippy spot was in a place that's THREE STORIES UP. Get the picture?
This is where God took what seemed like a nuisance and a challenge to remind me of the greatest lesson of all.
3 So he told them this parable: 4 “What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he has lost one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness, and go after the one which is lost, until he finds it? 5 And when he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing.
Luke 15:3-5 RSV
Life keeps on happening and for us, that means holding our resources with looser fingers, and trusting God more to fill in the gaps. I won't even pretend it's easy. But I'm learning that holding the finger of God while He directs our path is way better than clinging to a spreadsheet and a calendar.
Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he’s the one who will keep you on track.
Proverbs 3: 5-6 MSG